No Air

How do you expect me to live my life with just me?

Hahaha, just singing NO AIR song. it's what i sing when i'm out of breath again. I am waiting for bever to arrive to take me Micron to have CBC. If it's low, I might have blood transfusion again this Monday.

I got teary eyed earlier because for 10 seconds I felt I was so alone this battle and I felt so helpless. I actually voiced out asking God to please help me. So I got a call from Mama, and fixed things for me, now bever is coming to take me to the laboratory.

I also felt sad for myself earlier when i saw the pics of my cousins bonding at timoga. I only have an actual relationship with this cousins in FB before but there's that lukso ng dugo with them, knowing you share a bloodline that draws me to them, and i was so wanting to go to timoga on that day too. but my condition has so many conditions for me to be able to go there.

so many things i missed because i am being sick.