No Air

How do you expect me to live my life with just me?

Hahaha, just singing NO AIR song. it's what i sing when i'm out of breath again. I am waiting for bever to arrive to take me Micron to have CBC. If it's low, I might have blood transfusion again this Monday.

I got teary eyed earlier because for 10 seconds I felt I was so alone this battle and I felt so helpless. I actually voiced out asking God to please help me. So I got a call from Mama, and fixed things for me, now bever is coming to take me to the laboratory.

I also felt sad for myself earlier when i saw the pics of my cousins bonding at timoga. I only have an actual relationship with this cousins in FB before but there's that lukso ng dugo with them, knowing you share a bloodline that draws me to them, and i was so wanting to go to timoga on that day too. but my condition has so many conditions for me to be able to go there.

so many things i missed because i am being sick.

City of Angels

I love this song, it brings back memories from months back, when things weren't as complicated as it is now. I keep coming back to those times.

"I don't understand the God who would let us meet if there's no way we could ever be together" -City of Angels

Birthday Girl

Today is my birthday and things didn't turn out as planned.. but it was way better!

had dinner with mom, uncle jun, bever, kuya ogie, ken, roslene,  tels, rus, dex and chris..:D yeah. i know right. hahaha

happy 26th birthday to me. It's actually doesn't feel that bad!

I wish to have another year of good health, enough money for my medications, good health and safety for my loved ones, forgiveness. healing, and happiness.

Thank you to all who greeted me happy birthday today and yesterday.. and to those who were at my party yesteday at MSH-HD....until next year!

musings

falling in love all over again to that future someone i am to fall in love and marry while listening to IKAW.

dear future someone, i really do wish i'd meet you soon. or ever meet you before it's too late..

would there really be someone who would sweep mo off my feet and promise me eternal fidelity, happiness, love , devotion and care?

well, there better be. but for the meantime, i'm gonna continue indulging myself with these inspiring wedding songs..

haay, at 26 and after everything that has happened to me, i have still not given up on love and happy endings..

will i ever?

for as long as i remember, i know i wanted nothing less than a Maalala Mo Kaya kind of love story, of life story.. hahahaha...

I can't believe I am already 26.. :D

But i can say I am happy despite everything that has happened the past 3 years. can't believe it's 3 years either!

But life goes on. and i go on with a happy disposition in life..

i really think i should always listen to these kind of music cause it lifts up my spirits. hahaha

love. love. love. till the end.

even if it means i am to be in love with love by myself..

Love you forever, BLiNK TORRES

No words could describe the loss i feel over blink, my first love and my baby.

When i got sick, i was worried who will take care of blink when im gone, and what's his life be, missing me.

I just can't believe blink left me. Died before me. I'm gonna miss him everyday of my life until we meet again. At least there is something good to look forward to about dying.

I miss my baby so much. I wish I was there to take care of him. I had to give him up because i cannot take care of him anymore, because he could get me sick.

I wish it took care of my baby. and i thought we grow old together and die together too. omg im crying again. i really do miss him.

i'm so sorry blink for not taking care of you, when i couldn't take care of you.

Sabot bya ta ha taman pa ka 11. and you were still 7... but siguro it was better because you are not loved as you should be.. im so sorry i failed you.

thank you for the memories. and for your furry friendship.. i love you so so much..

me and parcy will miss you so much.

blink...

CORRECT!

NOT FUNNY

i had to edit my previous posts and delete the many HAHAHA on it cause when i reread it, what i just said wasn't really funny at all and it gets annoying reading the hahaha every paragraph.

makes me think the writer ( oh wait thats me. hehe see here it goes again) is crazy or something.

well i am crazy. just trying not to sound like one. :D

oh smiley na lang instead of hahaha to let you know i am amused of what i just said.