somwhere over the rainbow

the beach has always fascinated me. i was supposed to have a beach trip last summer (as in recently lang. ) with friends and someone dear but cancelled last minutes for health reasons.

now i wished i did go to that summer trip. it would have been my first trip away from home after i started being sick. and i was going to be with my friends, and with SO. that would have been a blast.

but now, summer has passed, and so has SO. twinks.

the one thing i feared when the year started has come, that is, spending the rest of the year alone again..

but then again, i find solace in being alone. it's not so bad being alone. well it is bad, but not so much..

one thing i realized, i am still alive. hurrah to that!!

and now i have all the time in the world to spend to myself. which gets boring too sometimes. joke..

i guess it's that point of my life where i explore the world with another set of glasses.. hahaha well literally i have new shades. but what i mean is that, after what i have gone through, i see the world with a fresh perspective. i hope wiser this time.

do i make sense, i don't know.